Thursday, December 22, 2011

the goddess circle.

I'm sure you've all heard me rave about Goddess Leonie and her Goddess Circle, right?

After much talk, I decided the entire topic needs a post of its own. And so here it is. The Goddess Circle.

Never heard of Goddess Leonie and her fantastical, wonderful online biz? Start here. And then read her love story. And then read her daughter's birth story.

I found Leonie back in February 2011, at a particular time when I was having a dark night of the soul. I don't think I'd ever felt so low. And lost. I'd dragged myself out of the shower, blotted my tears, and curled up into a ball in bed, totally disconnected with my world and disillusioned with life, feeling so much sorrow and hopelessness that I felt physical pain. I'll always remember that night. I clutched my newly-acquired smartphone with a death grip as I trolled Twitter (I had recently become enamored with it!), alone in the dark with just the glow of the screen. And that's when I found Goddess Leonie. The tears were long gone hours later once I'd read all four parts of her birth story, dug through archives, read every sidebar link, watched her videos and listened to her contagious laugh and felt her spirit. I felt her through the screen and across continents and seas and I truly believe: Goddess Leonie found me and helped me through that dark, dark night.

I just, got it, you know? It clicked. It felt right.

I needed more.

And so that April I took a big breath and decided to do something I'd never done before: I joined her online women's circle. Her Goddess Circle. I spent the money. I joined an online community. I braved my fears and began sharing bits of myself there, slowly. I tried out the meditations and dabbled in the e-courses and downloaded every poster possible.

I had no idea how much I'd fall for this thing.

And that's why I'm here, almost a year later, telling you all about it. It's changed my life in ways I couldn't even imagine, and I want to share it with everyone I know.

My favorite parts of the Circle:

The Radiant Goddess e-course. By far, the best one I've tried yet. I'm still listening to the meditations and making the recipes from that course. (In fact, I think I want to give it another go! They're always there for you, so if you want to do it again you absolutely can.)

The Circle Guide groups. Within the Circle, there are these smaller, more personal groups led by a Circle Guide designated by Leonie. It took me a really long to feel comfortable and safe enough to share in there, and having Goddess Sara's group was absolutely what eventually got me talking. And now, our little group has become so close -- I love those women. Also, there are threads for every possible topic you could think of -- this season, I even joined a holiday ornament swap.

There's this little video Leonie made, a little mini-workshop about protecting your energy that I recall at least once a week. There's no link for it, but I promise you -- once you join and watch it, you'll think totally differently about human interaction.

The 2012 Creating Your Goddess Year Workbook and Calendar is another bit that comes free with membership. It's practically worth the money in and of itself! I joined halfway through 2011 so never really fully filled out the 2011 Calendar, but this year I'm all about the 2012 one. I love it. LOVE it.

I'm just finishing up the Creative Goddess e-course now. It's a 6-week program, but I started it in August! Ha. I love that I can take my time with it and really dive into all the videos, meditations, and projects. I never really thought of myself as a creative being until doing the course -- it woke something in me, and now I can't think of any other way to be :)

And there are of course all the meditations. Some are long, some are only 4 minutes (I like to keep the shorter ones on hand on my iPod for quick pick-me-ups). There's a fabulous Divine Dreaming Meditation Kit that I've listened to more times than I can count. And the Releasing Fears meditation. And the Healing Rains one. Okay, they're all amazing.

All of these kits, workbooks, e-courses, meditations -- they're all available for download so you can keep them for whenever you need them! And as Goddess Leonie releases more products and genius creations, you automatically get access to them as a member of the Goddess Circle.

(And don't forget all of Leonie's free stuff. I have bookmarks upon bookmarks in my browsers of posts that just totally touched me. I watch Goddess TV whenever I feel like I need a little more connection. The How to Be a Morning Goddess Manifesto revolutionized my mornings. I've printed out countless posters and they've become my bedroom art. It's all magical.)

For only $99 a year, I couldn't say no. (And she's totally understanding and lets you do a $33/month payment plan, which was awesome.)

Hurray! My own little testimonial to Goddess Leonie and her fantastical Circle. I've wanted to write this for a long time. This is so, so important in my life now. That's why I want to share it with you. If you have any questions about the Circle, don't hesitate to email -- I love talking about it! If you're interested in joining, I'll see you there :)

*As a matter of transparency, I'll tell you that I'm a proud affiliate for Leonie's works, which means I get a percentage of each sale that goes through from these links :)

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

a small part of my day

There is a quiet stretch of highway winding its way through the mountains, running alongside rivers and railroad tracks,

where there is absolutely no signal.

No cell phone reception. No service to reach Pandora. Not even enough antenna strength to get in a single radio station.

For those three minutes as I drive along, twice a day to work and back, I breathe. I remember the world still exists even without constant connection. Sometimes I worry about getting a flat tire or breaking down on the side of the road and having to walk the long distance to the closest gas station (and in the rain and snow this worry is multiplied), but mostly

I'm able to love this small -- yet powerful -- part of my day.

Monday, December 5, 2011

full disclosure

The lowest point of my day was sitting at a toddler table trying to spoon yogurt into the mouth of a very uninterested child, listening to a symphony of sippy cups as the kids all joined in slamming them down onto the fucking table over and over and over again amidst crying and coughing in my face and red paint strewn all over my knees and sleeves, and wanting nothing more than to stand up, throw the yogurt in the sink, and walk out.

The highest point of my day was realizing that this feeling of  never getting out, of it being impossible to leave and  just totally stuck in this point of my life, is completely untrue.